Dear Future Husband…


Yo! Dear future husband,

I am 33. I just turned 33 a few days ago. I am not gonna lie… I am kinda freaking out you are not around. I am not sure at all if I already met you. I am not dating anyone. There are a few guys that keep texting me but neither of them seem to really want anything with me… or at least not that I know of…

Are you one of them? Do I know you? Are we friends? 

I don’t know why or how but several people… mostly men…have added me on Facebook and tell me that I am beautiful and blah blah blah… maybe they want me to help them get a green card or they want me to give them money. Don’t worry! I am not engaging with any of them! 

So… 2017 is almost here… a few days from here! Wow! Crazy huh? I still think 1997 was 10 years ago! 

And as you will know… every year I get this attitude of new year, new me! It only lasts a few days! It also happens at the ending of every month tho! Don’t panic! I will not make you have that attitude with me. Just listen to me and act supportive! It will go away! 😉😂

This time tho… I am not setting any goals like I usually do. This year I will have this attitude I am telling you about but I will try my best to keep it going! 

Mainly cuz I am exhausted. I am sooooo tired of the same thing. I heard on TV this saying “The good thing about hitting rock bottom is that there is only one way out. UP!” 

This is kinda where I am. You see? I have been waiting for you to appear in my life for a while now. I have been praying for you like I have never prayed before. I have been working on myself so that you will have NO DOUBT when we meet! 

I keep thinking that I am closer to you or closer to meet you every time I start falling for someone. I don’t fall for people super fast… I take my sweet time… as you will probably know… I don’t just fall for the average dude and I usually give it my all. 

Where in the heck are you tho SERIOUSLY?!? 

Am I that impossible to be with that you just won’t ask me out? Am I that terribly looking that it makes you double guess? 

Do you think that I will not fall for you and that’s why you don’t seem to ask me out? Am I not strong enough in my walk for you? Are these blogs making you scared? 

This time, my dear future husband, I making things a bit harder for you. A little pay back for making me wait this long!!! Just kidding. I just want to make sure I am not opening my heart to just anyone anymore. 

It hurts. 

I am soooooo used to it… it happens way too often. 

You see? I am just like any other girl… I fall for the texting or the nice words. 

The inside jokes and stuff…

I just keep thinking is you and then my bubble gets bursted by a guy who is not sure about me… a guy that wants nothing to do with me… a guy that likes my attention but doesn’t want my love. 

I keep thinking it might be YOU!!! 

This time or this coming year… I am gonna move differently. I am gonna move freely. I am gonna be the normal Esli… the brutally honest, the loving and fun BUT you will have to really LET ME KNOW IS YOU… I will not open my bruised and sore little heart to anyone until I know it’s you! 

Gosh!! I can’t wait to meet you!!!

I can’t wait to be your helper!!!

I can’t wait to give you all this love I have!!! 

I can’t wait to be yours!!! AND ONLY YOURS!!!! 

I can’t wait to do ministry with you!

I can’t wait to be the wife you have always prayed for! 

I can’t wait to be your #1 fan!!

I can’t wait to be your best encourager!!! 

I can’t wait to kiss your entire face!!!

I just can’t wait! 

And waiting sometimes hurts sooooo much!!! 

A Pastor (Adam Stadtmiller) a few days ago had a word for me he said:

“The Lord wants me to tell you that you don’t need a husband. You don’t need him BUT you deserve one! Stop acting like you need him! You are freaking amazing!” 

God is right! I mean I know He is God so He is ALWAYS right! 

I don’t need you right now! I am doing ministry very well without you! 

And one day I will get what I deserve!
Your future wifey

LovEs 
P.S.

I can’t wait to have your last name. 

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2 thoughts on “Dear Future Husband…

  1. I saw this meme the other day and it says “people asks why I am single when I’m beautiful, intelligent, and funny and I said because I’m over qualified.” When I saw it, I thought about you 🙂 you are overqualified sis so you might have to wait a bit for hubby to present himself to you. We don’t want your wifey skills to be put to waste so the right hubby needs to be prepped up by God. Hopefully and praying that your future hubby is obedient to God and is not prolonging his blessing to have you as his wife. I can’t wait to tell him “what took you so long knucklehead?” #Eslisagacontinues #prayingwhilewaiting #overqualifiedwifey #trustingHim

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